pamelonian

I re-read my notebook today and I found:

I say I am in love with her, what does that mean?

It means I review my future and my past in the light of this feeling. It is as though I wrote in a foreign language that I am suddenly able to read. Wordlessly she explains me to myself; like a genius she is ignorant of what she does.

I go on writing so that I will always have something to read.

This comes from a book I read called The Passion by Jeanette Winterson. I thoroughly enjoyed this book. It's historical fiction set in Napoleon's time. I am a sucker for this stuff.

I again have this vague feeling of being in love. It can't be my life or my job. I guess it could be myself. I love my family and friends, but that is not the feeling I am getting.

Today in aikido I landed hard on my knee so that it will keep hurting for a while. I also got a good mat burn on my elbow. I enjoyed today's class more than most, though, because I got to do stuff. A little soreness reminds me that I am alive!

I spent most of today shopping online. I finally ordered myself an iPod 80-gig. I already bought it presents and it isn't even here yet! We have an FM transmitter and a sport armband. I didn't pinch pennies on that because I don't want my cool black iPod to bounce out onto the pavement!

I have Monday off for Dead President's Day. I am really happy about that. I very badly needed a break.